Tuesday, March 31, 2009

I wish not to die


Perplexed and perturbed
Pen I grab
I blow my life
And in my verses I survive

Sometimes I blabber
Some random thought
Sometimes I etch
The reflection of my heart

Sometimes I portray
A tinge of delight
Sometimes in gloom
My pen halts

However dire
It may seem
I do not wish to die
I plead not for extols
Or fallacious words

Slash apart
Assess my flaws
Don’t let me plunge
Into an unreachable horizon

As I wish not to die
But, I wish to rise
Tampering my flaws

As I wish not to die
I wish to rise
Flowering my potency

If tomorrow comes


I wish to admire
The warmth of the scarlet sun
The sweetness of the dew drops
The freshness of the early dawn
The scent of the vivid blossoms
If tomorrow comes

I wish to show my gratitude
To my parents and siblings
To my teachers and preachers
To my subordinates and bosses
To my colleagues and pals
If tomorrow comes

I wish to conclude
The undone tasks
The unsaid words
And see the unseen places
And feel unfelt emotions
If tomorrow comes

Lain at the rim of my life
As I wait for the fiend of death
I wish to understand
Death after life
Life after death
If tomorrow comes…..

Renaissance once more


From void I emerged
Genesis it was

Then a struggle
To unravel
The meaning
Of my existence

My efforts plunged
Into eternity….

Then one fine day
I sank once more
Into void…..

Then Transformation

Renaissance once more…..

Monday, March 30, 2009

Once alive


I just asked for
A share of you
To sate my hunger
But your callous heart
Perceived not my need

A victim of your rage
I lie lifeless

Once an alive mosquito……

Thursday, March 26, 2009

The J(Z)ealous moon


The j(z)ealous moon
Rented a satin sheet
From the clouds
To hide its f(g)ac(z)e

After being
Spell bounded

By your exotic beauty

Tear continues...

My crystal heart clouds
At your sight

I pen my sour memories
As a tear rain

You halt for an instant
Then depart
as a galloping gale

Stopping the rain
Restoring the pain
For a future shower....

Renaissance


Shedding
My autumn tears

I nurture
My spring hope

Rising from my grave
I see the sunshine

Renaissance it is

Friday, March 20, 2009

Ruthless Romance


Her tendrils
Sprout
In his
Placid touch

She starves
For more of
His unsaid love

A sudden outburst
He stares
With his
Crimson eyes

Ripping her trust
He walks off
Throwing
A few pennies
As always

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

Ode of a lamenting heart

Blown away trust
Under your iron heart
It has got crushed

Sprouted desire
Lies lifeless
Without fire

My deserted shore
With ebbed sand
Can take no more

My darkened sky
Sans the betraying moon
At night it cries

Take my present
Return my past
Drain my sorrows
Before I exhaust

Heal my lesion
Hide my scar
Renew my life
Release me from this prison

All I know is....


I know not
How to show off
Or to compliment you
With flowery words
But all I know is
I do care
All your sorrows
With you, I’ll share

I know not
How to get your love
Or to ask for what I want
But all I know is
There will always
Be a place
In my heart
Just reserved for you

I know not
If you really
Notice me
Or just ignore
Blinding yourself
All I know is
You will see me
If you look through
Your inner heart

Friday, March 13, 2009

Life - Roller Coaster?


Life a roller coaster ride
Sometimes I am jumpy
Sometimes I am calm
Sometimes I witness
A turbid storm

Sometimes I climb
Difficulties steep
Sometimes I foresee
The waiting descend

I howl as I wait
For the impending fall
I snort as I see
The traversed path

Miles to go
Before I sleep
What I have sown
I shall reap

Just waiting for
The big leap
When the roller coaster
Will glide
Reaching the peak

Daddy's girl



In the rocking cradle alone she cried
In her father’s care, her tears dried
Daddy’s girl, he always on her side
From him there was nothing to hide

Swaying swing, frightened she cried
Assured her, he was her guide
Taught life and showed opportunities wide
She worried not, he was there to abide

Sailing smooth now, says she “enjoying this ride”
Her eyes does speak, she has now lied
Losing him, all nights she cried
Without his care each instant she died

Daddy’s girl, without him
Each instant she died

Monday, March 9, 2009

Broken pieces


Broken pieces of my heart
Scattered feelings drift apart
Rambling over some twaddle thought
What I hoped for I never got

A pallid dot in the crimson hue
Where the path leads, have no clue
The oozing oil will not last
The dreading storm is approaching fast

Past shadows my hopeful present
Devoid of hope, my life is a crescent
Daunted I wail, my cry does fade
Burning in pain, I wait for the shade

Burning in pain, I wait for the shade

Monday, March 2, 2009

Hilarious experience - 2


“Childhood musings”, pondering over this, I can relate to some memories. One of them goes so…

Our little gang, gang of cousins was gathered at our grand parent’s house for summer vacation. Of course summer vacation used to be so much fun. Now without diverting from my topic, let me come to the point. One day during the vacation some so and so show was scheduled to be telecasted at 11.pm. The program being a horror serial. Despite the warning from our parents, we defended our selves saying “We have grown up now. Please give us a break. We can handle it”. Elders deciding that there was no further use in arguing, left us on our own. All the elders slept in a separate room, leaving us alone for the rendezvous of so called grown up kids.

During the serial each one’s heart was pumping with fear, but no one showed it outside. Each one had a sheepish smile to hide the fear. After the program got over, we all slept with a night lamp on. Suddenly we saw some shadows on the ceiling. The shadows being as big as water melons. We were totally perplexed. We could not imagine what these were. I thought may be I am imagining these things and confirmed with others. No one seemed to know what they were. Suddenly the 3 shadows began to move and circle the ceiling fan. Now we were speechless. We were totally confused as well as feared to move and switch on the tube light to inspect what was wrong. One of them shouted “flying water melons”.

We thought of going to the elders and getting their help, but rejected the idea owing to the nice dosage of advice and scolding that would have been showered by them. Besides no one was ready to move from his/her position. I covered my face with the blanket murmuring prayers, hoping for the sunrise to come soon.

At last when sunrise came, we narrated what had happened to our parents. We said “mom, pa, we had seen flying water melons yesterday night L”. After inspection we found out some dead cockroaches. It had been some flying cockroaches which had given us such fright. All the elders mocked us. Even now when we gather together they make fun of us by asking “Do you still fear watermelons? we mean flying water melons”.